I struggled with eating disorders and eventually depression for two decades.
In the middle of this, I am married, a mother of two sons, and I have a good job. Like I said, everything looked good on the outside. I kept all of this secret, even from my family. The only thing they new was that I was depressed sometimes, although they never saw the worst of it. Most of the time, I was good at hiding it.
In secret, I was making efforts to stop, then would fail, and fall into despair. This cycle continued for years. I started to fall apart. The place I worked closed their doors and I lost the job that I loved, my best friend went through a divorce, my youngest son went off to college, and my husband and I, who had been struggling in our marriage for some time, grew distant.
We had been attending a church for most of our marriage, and we were realizing it was not a very healthy place to be. There had been constant turmoil and splits over the 20 years that we had attended so we decided to leave. I was so done with organized church that I would have loved to walk away, but instead we started attending one that I thought was the least like church I could find. You didn’t have to dress up, it had great music, and I thought it would be fluffy entertainment….I was wrong….in a such a good way.
You see, God was working behind the scenes. He was and is working all things for our good, even when it doesn’t seem so.
Romans 8:28
“And we know that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose.”